Posts tagged recruitment
run right back to the start
that we may grow in courage, graciousness, and peace.
HOLD ON, I JUST NEED TO BRAG FOR A HOT SECOND.
We had ELEVEN girls show up to open recruitment tonight, five of whom weren’t even at our recruitment event on Monday when we had eight show up. Last year we were basically begging girls to come to recruitment in the winter and didn’t come close to filling our total, and now we actually get to be selective because we have a lot more PNMs than we do open spots. Unfortunately, we’re gonna have to break some hearts which I’m not looking forward to. But the amount of work and dedication my sisters have put into this chapter and recruiting women who share our values and show commitment to service, leadership, and sisterhood has made me so proud that it’s worth it. I am so grateful for them making my first semester as membership vice president so much easier!
Okay so clearly this is a song about being in love or whatever, but all I can think of when I listen to it is my sisters.
I always prided myself on being really independent, and that I didn’t need other people to be happy as long as I had music. A lot of that was a mask for my high school angst shit, because I felt like I was ~better than everyone else but I was just really lonely. I never realized how much I need people and how important it is to have good, strong friendships with people you care about until I joined my sorority. And I don’t think I realized just how much I need my sisters and how much my letters & Ritual mean to me until I was disassociated.
As much as I might not have wanted to admit it back then, I am no island. I need my sisters.
No man is an island
When a woman is his home
I am so goddamn ready to come home.
BEING DISASSOCIATED IS REALLY, REALLY HARD.
I’ve been disassociated for less than 2 hours and I can already tell it’s going to be a long 6 weeks :( Every time I think about it, I realize there’s something else I can’t do. Like just now I was thinking about how awesome it is to live in the sorority house because there’s always someone around to hang out with or go somewhere with, but I can’t go anywhere with my sisters until October 8. I’ve only lived in this house for 5 days and I’m already missing out on one of the huge benefits of it! BAH! I went to Jimmy Johns after it was over with Chris and some of my sisters were there and I came to the really shitty realization that I can’t just sit down and have a conversation with them anymore when I see them in public. WHO AM I SUPPOSED TO TALK TO NOW??? Okay I’m being dramatic but whatever.
I think the hardest part of it all is that my chapter has become such a huge part of my identity in the last two years, and now it can’t be. During the ceremony we introduced ourselves and then put our letters into a box and I realized that it was the last time I’ll be able to say “Hi I’m Julia and I’m an Alpha Xi Delta” until Bid Day. That little introduction has become such a habit for me and now I can’t do it anymore, I don’t know it’s just really really weird. One of the goals I’ve set for myself as a Rho Chi is to not tell anyone what my affiliation is, but show through my actions how much of an AXiD I am and for no one to be surprised when I return home on Bid Day.
I know it’s going to be a lot easier and I’m going to be focused on so much more once recruitment starts, and I’m really excited to get my group of babies and help them find their homes. But the end of this feels so far away, it’s just hard to see the finish line.
Also I’m pretty sure I’m gonna be on the verge of tears for the next 43 days. Someone on facebook said the word fuzzies, not even in relation to AXiD and I started tearing up. Yikes.
